Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Happy Accident? and Name Change

While working today, I was tossing stuff around in my head about the fact that around this time next month, I will have a book ready for sale. That seems crazy in a lot of ways for me! It also fills me with pride.

I decided to change the name of this blog to "Mythos of an Indie". Perhaps one day I will become a legend :) Well, one can dream. I would settle for a mostly-remembered fable.

Also, I had to increase my target word count. It's tentatively 55k. The story is just not finished! I refuse to kill my story because of an arbitrary (completely arbitrary) word goal. So, there it is. My 98% completion dropped to around 89%, but that's okay! Inversion, anyone?

I also changed my schedule at work. 9-10 hour days, 5-6 days in a row over the weekend and beginning of the week meant that I was working A LOT, and because of the payroll week breaks, getting no overtime. I asked to only work 4 days a week. The funny thing is, I'm cut down a day, and my scheduled hours are only 3 less than last week. Hmmm...

Anyway, I have 3 days off a week to help get caught up. I also have a 9 day vacation coming in February, where I want to finish everything up completely/obsess over my launch. I really hope my cover guy gets back to me by then! 9 days unpaid, by choice (the 9 days by choice, not the unpaid part). Hopefully this will help me get the writing I want to get done, also :)

My fiance is also a super sweetheart by saying, "I don't care how much or how little you work, as long as you can cover your personal bills, and help out with buying food etc. around the house, it's fine!" I'd love to end up super successful so I can give us a boost in life, and provide a nice ending/reward for someone who is so supportive!

Love makes the world go 'round <3 (And loved ones make that damn book get finished!)

Sunday, January 16, 2011

The Angry Snore


I have an adorable bargain bin puppy who is supposedly a half black-lab, half border collie mix *coughbargainbinpuppycough*.  Though, he looks all black lab with a really long face, he holds his whip-tail like a border collie.  I can believe he is this mix.  His name is Ajax and he's incredibly cute in the face and horribly obnoxious when he tries.

He was more energetic than usual today (which means he was like Gordon Flash with Fur on Crack) and I could not seem to wear him out.  I wanted to get some writing done, because yesterday I didn't have any time before I konked out, dead from my 9 hour shift.  Needless to say, my little bundle of joy (read: obnoxiety, yes I made that word up just for him, I'm a wordsmith) wouldn't let me do so today.  I played tug with him for about 10 minutes then decided it would be better to play fetch.  Ajax loves fetch and we didn't even have to teach him, he brings the ball back automatically because he just LOVES to run (and tug you for ball rights).

I threw the ball so many times my shoulder was getting sore and he was panting like crazy.  I thought it would be a great time to bring him in, but apparently he had other ideas.  Usually when it's time to calm him down, we put him in his crate to rest.  He is very crate-trained, something we have done since we bought him from that shady fellow at the Circle K, whose name or address we never knew...  Anyway, it's important for him to have his "safe place", and to know where he belongs when no one is home/everyone is sleeping.  It means we don't have puppy piddle all over the house and because we trained him young he -never- gives us a fuss about going in there.  Actually, he walks in on his own, sits, and waits for us to close the door.  It's GREAT.

Today I said, "Ajax, crate."  He walked in, but oh he was not happy.  I closed the door and he walked around, whined, growled, grunted, moaned, clawed, banged, scratched and wheezed at me from behind his little crate bars.  For ten minutes... that became fifteen... then twenty... then thirty... I was about to tear my hair out.  Then, out of nowhere, he slams his body down onto the crate floor (I mean like, pro-wrestling off the turn buckle slam) and falls instantly asleep, emitting the angriest snore I have ever heard.  I don't even know how to describe it (and I, a writer!).  Imagine a dog giving a constant low growl, then break that up into the steady rhythm of breathing, then put all that through the nose.

It was thrice hilarious, a little pitiful, and very, very angry.  Don't be fooled by that face in the upper left-hand corner!  Behind those warm brown eyes is an emo-kid waiting to happen.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Reflections While Home Sick

I'm home sick from work today, seem to have caught a nasty stomach bug that has laid me low.  It started last night and I was not in a condition to be delivering pizza this morning :(  Luckily they found someone really quick, so I don't have to agonize over my decision, as I never, -never- call off if I can help it.  I'm hoping I feel better by tomorrow.

First off, I'd like to give a shout to Megan Duncan because while reading her blog I saw a nifty little gadget (the word counter in my upper right hand corner) that she ganked from Melissa Shepard, that SHE ganked from here.

I have almost decided on naming the book "Chains of Memory", so that is the heading for it.  It's a little satisfying to see the percentage complete, there.  Between visits to the Porcelain Throne, I hope to get some writing done as I'm not good for much else today (well, sleeping, but that's probably even less productive).  Hopefully I can bump it up off the 84% where it currently sits.

But, the title of this post starts with "Reflections" so I'd like to reflect a little today on the publishing industry as a whole.  I have very mixed feelings when I read blogs like J. A. Konrath's and see the print publisher bashing that goes on, especially in the comments section.  It's amazing to me how much shouting down is done to anyone trying to defend the traditional printers anymore.

When I first started reading it, I fell into the "Publishers must be wrong, Indie writers must be right, how could there be such a gap in royalties..." et cetera type of mindset.  It is very easy to lay the blame for the "bad decision" of rejecting a manuscript and poor royalty rates on a failing by the industry as a whole.

In the end, I have a BBA and I came to my senses.  It is true that, "All that glitters isn't gold"; that it is an irrefutable statement.  Do I think selling 1,000 copies a month of Book A on your own is amazing?  Yes.  Do I think the industry made a horrible decision by bypassing your manuscript?  Not necessarily. 

I read an interesting article here today.  I was looking for a tangible fact on the cost of printing a book so I wouldn't have to do the work myself, but I didn't really find that in so many words.  My goal was to try and demonstrate why publishers seem to desperately seek out that 1 million plus blockbuster over your 12k/year book.  Then I found **THIS**.  Finally, someone who understands and speaks rationally and objectively!

It's not that they wouldn't love to publish your book and get it into people's hands, it's simply the economics of the business.  Once you parcel out the money to printing presses, editors, cover artists, discounts to get your books on the shelves of major retailers... the publisher doesn't actually get to keep so much of that 85% cut.  In some cases (especially cases where the author doesn't earn out their advance), the author makes more than the publisher, in the end.

In order for publishers to keep taking on new authors they MUST be making a profit that allows them to do that!  If a publisher offers up an advance that is NOT earned out, they are losing money.  If they do that again, and again, and again... they will go belly-up, no questions asked.  (You cannot keep drinking from a container and expect it never to go empty - you MUST refill!)  The publishing industry is like a sieve.  They want to put out new books, but they have to spend money to do it.  Sometimes, the money they put out is more than the final product gives back, so the money trickles through the bottom of the sieve.  So they work harder and faster, all the while trying to stay high enough that the sieve won't be completely empty, leaving them with nothing.

In e-publishing, the costs are lower than traditional print books.  Yes, that's true.  But, there is still a significant cost to getting that book up for sale.  It is also a truism of business that if you want to continue with one thing that does not earn well enough to support itself (read: lowering print book sales), you use your "cash cow" (in this case, the slightly extra profit from e-books) to fund that other side of your business.

I keep hearing that the traditional publishers are floundering, that eventually they will be gone - bookstores all over the nation will close and we'll be left with no outlet for the "dead-tree model".  I absolutely don't believe that is true.  Yes, bookstores are closing.  The Borders near me closed because of poor management by Borders.  (You don't get into debt to publishers because people aren't buying a product from you that they buy elsewhere - you get there because you have screwed up.)  The Barnes and Noble in the area stripped it clean of customers by its better selection, prices, and over-all functionality of the store... exactly like Best Buy did to Circuit City in the same area only a few years earlier.  It is the nature of capitalism.

I think that publishers are holding on and riding it out.  Yes, many publishers and editors seem to be giving out information and quotes that puts them drastically behind the times.  It's not impossible or even particularly difficult to do that - witness Richard Curtis' blunder.  (Sorry Konrath, I'm not trying to pick on you, here.)  The fact is, when people are trying to prove a point, they will print information that puts their hypothesis in the correct light.

I personally believe that publishers are turning around the higher profits on their e-book sales to keep print publishing alive.  I applaud them for that!  I will be truly devastated if print books vanished, or became something for rich collector's to show off to their fancy friends.  When I was a child, I dreamed, dreamed of the day I would have enough money to have a library IN MY HOUSE.  A room, completely full of precious, delicious, well-written literature!  I love my Kindle to death, and I will parade it around and show off it's fancy features and all the while, it will fill with books I couldn't find in bookstores... while my bookshelves at home fill with books that CAN BE.

So publishers miss out on a few bestsellers - indie authors that go to e-book publishing and with a liberal dose of personal promotion and luck, become famous almost overnight.  Who hasn't made a mistake?  That time I drove that guy's car to pick him up for work and got hit by a truck gone left-of-center, doing $43,000 in damage?  How about flying home from Japan on an overbooked flight and turning down a free flight to Hawaii, including overnight hotel stay?  I've made mistakes, too.  Everyone does.  It's part of the human experience.

I have a sneaking suspicion that one day, publishers will turn the whole business on its head and indie authors will be left wondering what's happened, because they are becoming so smug and self-important that they believe they can never fail.  I picture those publishers like jungle cats in the trees, indie authors sprawled fat and lazy in the shade with the profits they have garnered for themselves.

Are you not afraid of that image?  I am.

What happens when publishers strike a deal with Amazon that, under their label, Amazon continues the 70% profits, but self-pubbed only get 35% at best?  What if it's 20%?  5%?

I'm not saying it's a future that's chiseled in stone, I'm saying let's not throw our spears into the fire before the jungle cats are actually exterminated, yeah?

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Difference a Year Makes

I have to post this, because I find it so hilarious.  I was looking over the stats for this blog and one of my popular posts this week can be found here.  It is a post from EXACTLY a year ago, today.

How much different do I feel about my life!!  I could absolutely be a stay-at-home-author and get work done.  I think I needed some serious work grind to remember there are things out there I love to do - and writing is really one of them.

I may not be the most fabulous writer ever to grace the halls of of the printed word, but I love what I do and I think that shows.

Yesterday I wrote three chapters (Yes, I did manage to get all three, haha, my fiance can't yell at me!)  It averaged out somewhere in the range of 3.3k in words.  I went back today and read over it, tweaked a bit here and there.  I don't know if it's the outline I made so I can see the path clearly... or just that the more I write, the more naturally it comes... or if I'm in one of those "It's just writing itself!" modes... but I did them in record time yesterday.

I feel like a total bundle of nerves about the whole thing.  Only ten days ago, I ordered a cover for my almost complete first novel.  Only a year ago, I wondered if I'd ever finish writing a story!!!

Well, I am proud of myself, and I hope you, dear reader, can share in the warm rays of my ego also :)

Monday, January 10, 2011

Geeking Out

I just want to put out there, into the digital world, that I am geeking out a little bit.  Why?  I just crossed the 40k marker a few minutes ago.  According to my outline, I have 10k and 6 chapters to go.  Then, this book will be finished.

I feel absolutely amazing right now.  I am almost finished.  I can see the light at the end of the tunnel... I can feel the wind kissing my face and hear the birdsong of freedom.

Why freedom?

I feel like this is a very serious turning point for me, when I can finally shake off the last vestiges of doubt from childhood trauma (as pertains to writing).  I felt so much shame over the whole PotP incident (which I have not fully cataloged yet, sorry)... as I said, I felt so much shame over my failings that I haven't completed a serious work since.  In fact, in the roughly 12-14ish years since then, I have finished only 1 short story.  What a waste of time on my part!  Oh, hindsight, you are truly 20-20.

Finally getting up the courage to tell the story, and to the wide world of strangers (aka: internet) was a huge step.

I feel like walking around and laughing with every person I meet.  I want to share my jubilation with the world!

I am almost finished!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(I must be a good writer, look how many exclamation points I used!)

Days of Freedom

It's been a little rough at work this week.  I worked 26 hours in the last 3 days and 6 of them were yesterday...

Needless to say, I slept in today.  The poor puppy woke me up with his whining because it was past his breakfast time :(  Sorry Ajax!

Today I'm mostly relaxing and getting my lazy on.  When my fiance and I ended up finally at home for the night, yesterday, I was so darn tired!  I begged to be let out of my writing for the day, promising three chapters today.  Well, I got a pass, and now I have to write three chapters!  Ha ha ha... oooh...

I've gotten the house cleaned up a little.  I really hope to be a full-time author one day, because our house will be so much cleaner then!  Though, if I had free time all the time, maybe I would be lazy and get less writing done?  In case my fiance reads this post... that last sentence was just a joke.  Ha, ha!!

In writing related news... no chapters yet.  However (here you should picture me triumphantly piercing the sky with a jabbing forefinger) I did make an outline of how to end my book.  I never make outlines, the story is always floating on waves of imagination through my brain.  But, I'm getting down to the last bits and I want to make sure everything is in its correct place - especially since this will be the first novel I've ever finished.

If all goes according to outline, this book will be finished in 8 (eight!) chapters.  I just had a small moment of foreboding there, so I had to spell out eight.  8 is too close to the sign for infinity, and I don't want infinity chapters until I'm done...

I think it will probably be closer to 9, but we shall see.

Also, for those interested, here is my current (as in, in progress) reading list:

(Hardcover) The Heretic's Daughter, Kathleen Kent
(Borrowed, hardcover) The Host, Stephanie Meyer (I have not, and will never, read Twilight, so don't ask)
(Hardcover) The Monster Book of Zombies, anthology
(Hardcover) A Whisper of Blood, anthology
(Kindle) The Hangman's Daughter, Oliver Potzsch (umlaut over the o in the last name, laaaazy)
(Kindle, free) Bright of the Sky, Kay Kenyon

I know there are more, but some of them are actual printed books and got lost in the shuffle in the house...

In my Kindle sample queue:

The Demon Queen and the Locksmith, Spencer Baum
Amber Magic, B.V. Larson
The Gift of Fury, Richard Jackson
Silver Thaw, Amy Rose Davis
The Black God's War, Moses Siregar III

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Karmaic Balance

I am a pretty firm believer in the power of karma.  I think I have avoided so many accidents in my car because I'm a courteous driver.  Things in this vain, et cetera.

Today I tried to contact a fellow I knew in college.  We were in IFS together (International Film Society, for all you acronym lovers)  He's a pretty cool cat, very witty, very into paranormal.  He sometimes interviews/takes pictures with famous horror movie figureheads.  I think it's pretty impressive how far he's taken his love of the genre.

I know I need to network for my book, but it's really hard to do.  It's not what I am particularly interested in doing.  I want to write.  I want to have my product available to entertain others.  I love the business side of it, but for now, I want to focus on the production side.

So anyway, I contacted him with the hopes that in exchange for a digital ARC, he'll review my book (for better or for worse) on his blog, and on Amazon where I suspect it will be posted.  Then I clicked send on the e-mail, with much trepidation.  Will he answer me back?  Probably, like I said, he's a cool cat.  Will he do it?  I have no idea.  We honestly haven't talked much since graduation.

Then, not five minutes later I struck up a conversation with an ex-professor and friend of mine from that self-same college.  Incidentally enough, she was my Marketing professor.  We talked a little about my book finishing up this month and hopefully being available soon.  Then, surprise of surprises, she asked if I would like to become a client of her Promotional Marketing class.  She thinks my book would be a great way to get them started (Google is apparently giving them $200 in adwords credit).

I am absolutely way excited about that, so of course I said YES!

I had another 9 hour day at work, but right now I am feeling quiet content <3